Whispers in the Dark

Anonymous asked: no no you don't sound like a bitch at all :) I just hope you're not offended by my messages, especially as I only know what I see of you on this blog. But yeah just remember that I care and you are definitely not worthless, however much the voice tries to convince you otherwise. <3

No no, not offended at all. They make me smile (: 

Thank you. Really. <3

Anonymous asked: it's ok. I'm sorry you feel that way. Just don't isolate yourself and wait for people to come to you all the time.. maybe take a chance and ask them to come to you, don't cut yourself off. You can live the life you used to imagine if you give it a chance. A little optimism goes a long long way in the depths of depression. xx

I don’t cut myself off. I try to reach out to people, and time after time I get hurt. And I try to be optimistic, but when there’s constantly voices telling you that you’re worthless, and you should go kill yourself, it gets too hard to bear. 
I feel like I’m sounding like a total bitch right now. I’m sorry, that’s not my intention. Seriously, thank you for trying to help. <3 

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Anonymous asked: you are not a mistake, if you weren't meant to be in this world, you wouldn't have been put here. love is everywhere, take care.xx

Thank you. I still strongly believe that I am. I’m not supposed to be here. Everyone would be happier and better off without me.
I wish I didn’t feel this way, but I can’t help it.
Thank you for trying though. It really means a lot. xx 

I need you. I need you so fucking bad, and where the fuck are you??? 

There’s a man outside my window, and I know that if I act like I can see him, he’ll break in and kill me. I can’t let him know I know he’s there. I can’t tell anyone, and I can’t cry. There’s this pressure on my chest that won’t go away. I feel like I can barely breathe, and I’m panicking. What the fuck is happening to me?? 

It’s one of my best friends’ prom tonight, and oh my god she looks amazing. She lives in Poland, so I never see her, but I’m going to Berlin with her this summer. I cannot wait to get to spend a whole week with her. (: